Hurry up and wait. Push and pull. Opposing opinions and awesome validations. Glad-handers and naysayers. Promises and lies. Ups and downs. Positives and negatives. This is the life of a technology startup CEO.
The CEO is me.
When I told my son what I was getting ready to do, he said, “Cool, Mom.” He’s proud of me for doing this thing. He then said, “Takes a lot of courage, Mom.” He’s right; it does take courage. It’s my money, time, and reputation on the line.
On the other, the fear of not bringing this solution to a beleaguered group was worse. The question then becomes: How can I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that I have a solution for several million people in a worldwide industry and not do anything about it?
I. Don’t. Have. A. Choice.
I’ve read stories about people who said “I had no choice.” And I laughed at them. Do you understand what I’m saying? I laughed at them. Called them stupid. Said they had delusions of grandeur.
Silly woman! I knew nothing. Understood nothing about what drives these people to do what they do.
When you have something bigger than yourself, and you know you can’t do it alone, and that so many people will be benefitted, I now know what the Gates, Jobs, Zuckerburgs, Packards and Hewletts, Fords, and so many more — so, so many more — have been through. They are laughed at, scorned, and shunned…until they aren’t because that thing they thought up is working.
I made a joke the other day at a meeting of other tech company startups. I said, “Well, I’m the CEO of a company that will solve a worldwide problem in the music business, and we will take over the world when we…”
The whole room laughed, but not out of derision or making fun. It was because they understood what I meant.
Wow. That was totally affirming. I liked it.